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Happy Mother's Day!

Nothing can make this Mother's Day any more special than the cold I have, in addition to the tooth ache!  I did sleep in until about 8:30 which was nice.  Today is probably going to be just like any of weekend day in my house.  Filled with house cleaning and laundry.  I might get to see a few friends later on, which will be the highlight of the day before I head back to bed and starting the week off again.  This was the shortest weekend ever!


It was a fun weekend though.  Yesterday we got to meet some new people that will be part of the Pee Wee football staff this year!  That was awesome, not to mention we are all on the same page which will make for a successful season!


We went out and had a few beers with a couple friends, that is always fun especially when the one person who promised they would be there, did not show up!  I love it when I count one someone and they let me down.  


I was hoping for some breakfast today, but I would just be happy to see that someone took care of the dishes and a few chores.  I don't ask for much!


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MY MOMMY FRIENDS!

Bad parenting?

We were at a friends birthday party and it was of course mostly all adults.  There were kids there, but they all stayed inside the house while the adults played cards and drank, in the garage.  My kids were not there, they had their own things going on.  My kids are a little bit older and so sometimes they will hang out with us.  I over heard a parent asking their kid to go inside with the others because the garage scene was not appropriate for them.  To each is own, but it really got me thinking... Have Danny and I been bad parents all along?  We have always taken our kids places with us.  We rarely ever got babysitters, so the kids have seen their fair share of BBQ's and house parties.  Is this why I am having such a difficult time with the middle one?  Have I sent them the wrong message about how to grow up and the things you should say no to?  I figured that by bringing the kids with us was better than leaving them with a sitter and this was good parenting.  I am definitely second guessing that now.  It is obviously too late to go back and change anything and now i just have to deal with the issues that come with parenting an adult, teen and tween!  THIS folks is why I drink wine!

Sometimes moms make things better

Being home and sick is a lonely combo.  You just lay there in bed feeling sorry for yourself, with nothing to do but watch TV.  With daytime TV as horrible as it is, all you really have to do is lay there and feel sorry for yourself.  

Remember when you were little and your mom would take care of you and make it all better. Granted we had the good cartoons back then, but at least mom was there with the soup and crackers to help in the speedy recovery.  

My mom is/was like that.  I knew that every time I did not feel good, all I had to do was mention it to my mom and she was on her way with soup, ginger ale or whatever it was that would make me feel better.  Yesterday was an odd day.  She sent me a text about something unrelated and I was able to throw in there that I was home sick.  Not a word was said about my being home sick or asking how I was feeling.  My text went ignored for a good several hours until she needed to know something else, unrelated to me being sick. 

I guess I have finally outgrown that stage where my mommy comes to the rescue when I am home and sick in bed.  I did not think we were ever too old for that, but I guess I was wrong.  My kids did not even come and check in on me.  

Stuck in bed, damn chest cold!

I don't think I have ever stayed in bed ALL day!  Let me tell you, it is BORING!  Day time TV sucks, I am forced to watch commercials and you can only take so many naps.  I am chugging the water and vitamin C.  I need to get back to work, I can't handle laying in bed.  Thank God for the all day marathon of Real Housewives of Atlanta.  

No rest for the wicked!

I literally spend 12 hours a day, away from home and just like everyone else the last thing I want to do when I get home is clean.  Unfortunately, if I don't do it, it won't get done.  The kids will pick and choose what chores they want to do and then will do them only when they want and when they do decide to do them they are done half ass.  The number one chore that NO ONE wants to do is the dishes.  Everyone has boldly admitted that the dishes suck and no one wants to do them.  I have always done the dishes and that is because I really don't like the way other people do the dishes.  They just never seem to be as clean as they would be if I had done them.  The darling husband has nagged me about this for YEARS.  I finally give in and end up doing them  myself anyways.  I understand that "you" may not have used that bowl, plate or glass in the sink, but this is a house and we all live here and therefore we all need to do chores in order to keep the house running smoothly. The husband just yells at everyone and barks orders because there are socks in the way of him sitting down to play video games.


My kids think I am a raging bitch and well I probably am.  Maybe if more people helped me out without bitching and complaining I would be nicer.  Maybe if people did chores and didn't have something they wanted in return, I would be nicer.  Maybe if I came home to a somewhat clean house and did not have to pick up after everyone else, I might be nicer.


I try to spin it and tell people that my house is lived in and well it is just plain messy.  If there were more hours in a day I might be able to keep up on it.


As I sit here and type this, we have NO idea what we are doing for dinner, but no one seems to care too much so I am  not going to worry about it either.  

Sunday Funday

Sunday's are typically fun for us.  If time permits, we will join a few friends at The Riverside for some breakfast and a few drinks.  This typically sets the stage for our softball game.  Well Sunday May 6, was more fun for some than others.  Danny decided his drink of choice at breakfast was going to be a screw driver.  Naturally he did not have too many  because he was driving.  He did however, continue the party of ONE when we got home.  I was seriously tired and just wanted to nap but of course had mounds of laundry to be done and kids that needed to be taxi'd around town.  Danny was drinking alone!  We met up with a few of our team mates and Danny was having a grand ol' time.  I guess Vodka make shim the life of the party.  Well party over once we got to the game.  Danny is up to bat, hits the ball, a decent grounder, runs to first.  As we all yell "stop, stop, stop" telling him to stop at first, he disregards our requests and keeps running.  As he is running to second, he sees that the other team is about to make a  play at second and get him out.  He turns and runs back to first and soon realizes that they are about to get him out at first so what does he do?  The ONE thing he has said time and time again that he will never do again!  HE SLID back into first.  He was out of course but it was one hell of an effort and he has the cuts and scrapes to prove it.

One step forward and TWO steps back

Why don't kids understand that there are consequences for their actions?  Why do you feel that only one week after you were in the back of a cop car AGAIN, that you should be able to hang out with your friends?  What is the acceptable punichment for that?  I don't even know, I have never had to deal with this but apparently we are going about this all wrong and therefore we are assholes. 

Why can't raising kids be easy?  Why can't they all just get into a little bit of trouble, someting that I know how to handle?  Why can't they see that everything we do is for them?  Are they that selfish and ungrateful?  This mom thing really sucks sometimes and I feel like I failing.

Why do I feel guilty that you are stuck home on a weekend?  Happy Cinco de Mayo!  I just want to crawl back into bed ans tay there unile the kdis haev all grown!  Is there a pill for that?  Everyone else seems to be on happy pills, maybe I should get on happy pills to numb these feelings that I have!!!!!!!

Got shoes?

I am the person who loves to run around barefoot and yet I still have this desire to buy shoes.  All kinds of shoes.  And if they go on sale, FUGGETTABOUTIT!  My shoe collection is nothing to brag about because they are not fancy expensive shoes but they are mine.  The other day I was getting ready for work and went to put my shoes on and realized that this is out of control.  This is the pile that is by my bathroom sink, this DOES NOT include the shoes that are in the closet.  I have decided that I need to get rid of a few pairs (maybe to make room for more one day).

The pair that I am willing to get rid of first is the pair that gave me blisters the last time I wore them.

And yes they are that ugly in person.  I have not idea why I bought them!

One day at a time

It was a rough Saturday for our family but we all hung in there and pulled together as a family and made it through that rough time.  I could not have done it without the support and love from our friends and family!  Everyone was so understanding and supportive.  I woke up on Sunday bright eyed and bushy tailed with the attitude that it was was going to a great day.  I started off rough, but got better when we won our softball game.  The night ended with Dakota taking his brother out for some pizza and much needed brother time.  That helped me sleep better.  I have a brighter outlook on life and am going to only take it one day at a time!


I learned this weekend that right now, nothing matters more than him getting a dirt bike so I am working with him on getting some side jobs and saving his money so that we can fulfill that dream.  It broke my heart when he eluded to the fake that Dad and I don't make enough money to make him happy.  I did not raise him like that and I don't know who fills his head with that crap but I will not sit back and watch my kids pretend that they are spoiled brats.  I am going to start looking got local volunteer opportunities where the kids can see how goo they actually have it.

Where did I go wrong?

Parenting is not easy and I am constantly reminded of that each and every day.  I thought i was doing a decent job, considering there is not a manual that comes with becoming a parent.  You learn by trial and error and just not try to make the same mistakes twice.  Well at least I do, I think the boys think differently and try to repeat the same mistakes to see how mad they can make me sometimes.  You want your kids to grow up having fun and remembering how awesome you were as a parent, but you also want to be a parent and discipline your kids so that they are not complete heathens.  I think I went to far with the freedom side with one and am no paying for it.  All I can say is, if this is pay back for being a bitch to my mom, I am truly sorry for everything that I did wrong and if I could go back and change it, I would.  Well maybe just a couple things.  They say pryaer works.  That is what I will be doing a lot of, moving forward.

Saturday Funday!!! NOT!!!

So the hubs is headed into work today to try and get some one on one training for a new position which he is trying to master.  I feel bad for him, but I know that this will do him some good.

While he is at work, I have a lot of stuff that needs to get done around the house.  One of them being this big pile of shoes that need to be put away.  Don't tell Danny but I think it is time to get rid of a few pair.  After work, this is where my shoes go to rest ;)





I also have 6 tons of laundry to do and the rest of the house needs to be cleaned.  The kids just don't get it and don't care to help. 

The washer is full, the dryer is full and I have a drunk guy passed out on my couch!  YES, he took his shoes off first.  i am confined to my room and the office.  How am I suppsed to get anything done?

Just because someone says they are sorry, does not mean they truly are.  Generally repeat offenders are not sincere about their apologies.  I may come off as a mean cold hearted bitch but that is only because I am tired of dealing with the pure bullshit that comes with having friends.  I decided to put my guard up and weed out a few people that I did not consider true friends and now am thought of as a bitch.  I don't mind much.  I have my close friends that I enjoy being around.  One person can only have so many friends.  If yo have too many, then how will you have enough time for them all?  My point is that I too have feelings and being called fat and frumpy and lacking the ability to take care of myself is not good for the soul.  Yes I have put on a few pounds and yes I LOVE me my jeans and baseball cap on the weekends!  You know why I love my jeans and baseball cap?  I get up at 3:45 am Monday thru Friday so that I can be to work at 6 am in Costa Mesa.  That's right.  I have an hour + commute each and every day.  I will usually put on make up for work and of course dress in business attire.  With that said,come the weekends I want to be comfy and casual.  That does not make me fat or care less about who I am.  It means I want to spend my free time with my family and not worrying so much about what I look like.  It is all about quality time with the family.

I tend to feel bad for those that get bit in the ass by karma, but I love it when I am driving the karma bus and running people over.  I am not a mean person by nature, but I am certainly not going to sit around and allow people to push me around.  You can say all the mean things you want.  They may hurt my feelings for a minute or two, but then I realize the source and that makes me laugh.  Haters are gonna hate no matter what!  I guess that is what makes the world go round.  


I hope everyone has a fantastic hump day!

I am still working on the settings for my blog and am hoping that one day I can get them figured out.  I am using this post as my beta test to see if I might have finally figured it out, thanks to my dear friend and blogger A Girl on the Mend.


It seems that my big mouth and strong opinion landed me on the Channel 4 morning news.  I was replying to a question the new channel had posted on Facebook in regards to the elbow that Metta World Peace threw during Sundays game.  If you ask for my thoughts and opinion, that is exactly what you are going to get!  I made the picture bigger for those of you (you know who you are) that cannot believe their eyes!

I have the MOST amazing friends ever!  I try not to let the nasty words of other people get to me and I do pretty good at it.  I also try and just let things go,  but there are some things that are just so much more fun when you play along and even more fun when you have a playmate.  Lat night was fun in regard to the supposed anonymous person who is leaving me nasty notes on my Diary of a Wimpy Mom blog.  A close friend of mine decided that she was going to let this person know that just how stupid they really are.  You may say childish, but I say PURE entertainment.  Here is the link if anyone cares to read up.


http://lewimpymom.blogspot.com/2011/10/i-love-facebook-changes.html#comments

I am flattered when people who hate speak my name.  Just when you thought you got rid of all the trash out of y our life, it seems that a LARGE piece some how finds its way back.  


It is entertaining to hear and read what these uneducated remedial pieces of trash have to say.  I do need to give credit where credit is due and the fact that she reached out via another blog of mine that has not been updated in quote a while was creative.  Now if only I gave a shit.  It was perfect timing though, because I was able to share her words with people that she thinks are her friends and it was great that we all got a good belly laugh out of it.


My advice would be to focus on her cheating husband and their issues with alcohol and drugs and focus less on how much weight she thinks I have gained. You see I don't care about the weight, I can lose weight.  You cannot fix ugly and stupid!


This might be a good reason to raise a glass of wine and toast tonight!  I leave such a lasting impression on people that they just can't seem to stop talking about me!  I love being this awesome!

Even though Monday was a rough day for us all and eventually I was able to get some wine to the house, the minute I opened the bottle and poured a glass, McKenzy started coughing again and it just didnt sound good.  He said it hurt when he coughed and so I thought that I would do the right thing and get him over to Kaiser.  The wine could wait, and it did!


Last night was when I finally got to enjoy some wine.  Although it was served with baby vomit, it was quite delicious.  I do plan to get back to my wine reviews here soon.  I am going to have to venture out and try some new blends and new makers.  This will be hard for me because that will mean that I will have to try some Merlots, which I am not happy about.  But for the sake of writing a review, I will give it a go.  I am afraid that I will run out of $10.00 wines that I am willing to taste.

April 10, 2012


Since going back to work, I have not had as much time to share my wine reviews.  Actually I have not had much time to even drink wine.  Up until last night, it had nearly been forever since I had any wine.  


My husband decided to quit smoking (Lord help me and the kids) so we had stopped at Walmart to buy a few things that we needed, which included one of those electronic cigarettes and some beer.  While we were grabbing the beer, I saw the wine.  I knew that I had TONS of laundry at the house that needed to be done and figured that nothing makes laundry more fun than a bottle of wine.  Yes I said a bottle!  I never stop at one glass.  Get over it!


I pick out my wine, he picks out his beer and we proceed to the checkout.  We had to go to a certain checkout because there is only one where you can buy cigarettes and cigarette accessories.  We get up to the check stand and we are off to a rough start right form the start.  My husband is ultra moody because he has not had a smoke and has been chewing on nicotine gum all day.  He is trying to ask the cashier if they have the 1.8 mg cartridges because when he looked back here, he has not seen any and so he wanted to make sure they had what he needed.  He would ask if they had it and she would reply with, "so you want the 1.8?"  They went back and forth a few times.  It was rather frustrating for me and I was not having any withdraws.  Finally she confirmed they had the higher dose and he confirmed that was what he wanted and we were back  to the checking out process.  Until she asked for ID's, that is.  Danny was paying so he had his ID ready.  I was off to the side, Facebooking about other Walmart shopping experiences and so I wasn't fully paying attention.  I could tell that there was some confusion so I directed my attention to the cashier and my husband and quickly learned that since we were shopping together, she would need BOTH our ID's.  Well I left mine in the car and I was not about to run out and get it.  After a little back and forth and the lady behind us even getting involved; I took the card keys, got my purse and went next door to Vons where they are much nicer to deal with.


The cashier explained that she was asking for both because we both appeared to be under 40 and that is their policy.  I had such mixed emotions.  I wanted to punch her for not selling the beer and wine to us and I wanted to kiss her for saying I looked under 40.  I decided to do neither.  Besides, she already have a broken nose and I thinking I know why.

Could it be?????

I wouldn't go as far as to say that I am picky, because as you can see, all the wines I have shared have been under $10.00.  I guess you could call it more reserved than anything.  I know I need to branch out and try new things, but I tend to stick to what I know and that is Cab and Zins.  My goal is to one day belong to a few different wine of the month clubs and that will force me to try and review new wines, but as for now I am left to pick my own and well I will keep picking Cabs ans Zins and hope that I never run out.


I could always take suggestions, but that would mean that people would have to make suggestions and my goal was to keep all the wines affordable for the non-working mom ($10) because I was not working when I started to blog about wine.